‘Death and life are in the power of the tongue’

I keep on climbing up the ladder.

At every step I dodge the adders.

'Cause just one bite, just one mistake,

And I'll crash down, deep in the grave.

At every point I hold on tight,

My only hope is to survive.

Just one misstep, and I'll fall down

Down, back into the sunless town.

Such a fragile balance...

Happiness is not a garant

Sometimes I'm granted a taste of happiness.

Yet, like the dried-out tongue tasting a drop of water, it only reminds me how good it would be not to suffer.

The honeydew that my lips are endowed with, serves just to contrast the bitterness that my mouth inundates

All I want is some attention,

But that worsens my situation.

I want love, even if only a bit,

Even crumbs, I'll be happy with it.

I want to be noticed by 'they'

But 'they' won't understand, so hey

Guess I'll keep walking alone

Because it hurts less

then the misplaced pitty they've shown.

Every morning that I wake,

I'm greeted by coffee, and ache.

Caffeine to rouse my brain

Yet no endorphins for the pain.

Every morning, breakfast in bed,

Butter and anxiety, smeared on the bread.

Hopelessness for lunch, dread for dinner,

Nighmares are my late night snack winner.

Emotional annorexia,

I spat it all out.

Maybe if I don't feel

There'll be less fallout.

Then switch to bullimia

And binge on my life.

Feeling everything at once,

I'm sickened by strife.

Emotional disorders,

They chew your body up

And you can only watch

How you waste away under the make-up.

You start afloat, not up, not down.

But then you go, some up, some down.

Up and down, then down and up.

But it might be that you mess up.

Up, then down, then down some more.

Up, and down...far from the shore...

Up and down....then down again....

Heading to the depths of hell.

- Warning - Approaching crush depth! -

Crawl back up....then drop back down...

To this motion I'm beknown.

Some peaks, more valleys,

Quite infrequent to stay jolly.

Sometimes my eyes are sparkling stars...

Yet on my cornea they leave scars.

The dark for terror will allow,

Rip them out their sockets NOW!

Blood, no tears....

bright white smile to hide my fears.

- Warning - Dangerously close to crush depth! -

I read and study the only manual...

I pull some levers, turn some knobs...

Gain some buoyancy, I go aloft.

It then breaks down and sinks again.

Hope might be lost, my dear friend.

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- Warning- Emergency ascend necessary. Impending critical damage! -

Scream for help, who's gonna hear?

Deep underwater, no more air.

Punch the walls and pull your hair out...

It is too late for saving now.

- Warning - Maximal hull pressure reached. Imminent cabin failure -

A loud bang, and then a drop.

A whiz, a whistle, then a “pop.”

A pill, some powder, eyes wide shut.

Approaching steel, it then goes “splat.”

A gasp, some bubbles, gone in a blink.

Some tiny metal, then red ink....

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